Beautiful Love

Beautiful Love,
Stay awhile,
It hurts when you're away.
The strings we tied
around our hearts
weren't meant to stretch that way.

For You

For you I sing of life unbridled

For you I live a tale without fear

For you I dance without recital

For I am wishing for you here.

Loving Lost

Love unexpected

Loving clear

Love unbidden

Loving here

Love unsafe

Loving crossed

Love unequaled

Loving lost.

But Still

Questioning, unfaltering
my sense of confusion in this state.
Your muted tongue tells
stories of love, but still...

Mysterious, delirious
your actions in this room.
My bare skin sings
your fingertips, but still...

Unlikely, unearthly
this lightning striking twice.
That night echoes
a history in my life, but still...

Gloriously, notoriously
our fusion of catalyzed bodies.
The world sighs
I shudder for breath, but still...

Desire, uninspired
that may be all we have.
I keep you in
so you can't leave, but still...

...But still I love you,
But still I question you,
But still I let you in.

...But still I need you.
But still I don't believe you.
But still I whisper,
'You are my gift.'

Wind Words

(A Lilibonelle)

I strain my ears to hear wind words.
Off in the distance Midnight tolls.
An echo carried on the wind
To lock our hearts and free our souls.

Off in the distance Midnight tolls.
Yet no clock tower lies in view.
Time is up for me I see
Too many ticks and tocks too few.

An echo carried on the wind,
It is a whisper through bare trees.
"Hurry child, tarry no more,"
Time is crying. I will appease.

To lock our heart and free our souls,
I see no gold and red winged birds.
My feet stay frozen to the ground,
I strain my ears to hear wind words.

Alder's Song

I.
My lonely Alder
Deep rooted at water's edge,
Wait a season more.
I am a Willow growing.
You are my King unknowing.

II.
From a simple seed
I will grow up in your shade
With our roots entwined.

III.
My lovely Alder,
Watch my eyes turn up to you
Yet my leaves hang down.
I am a Willow growing.
You are my Love unknowing.

Divinity

I spend my sunrise breathing His praise
Afraid of the failing night
yet I bask in the light of His presence
for prayers go unanswered when He's gone.

Another instant I am left breathless,
Another second of fallacious hope,
Another moment of worship at His temple.
I try to speak of His beauty internal
and my bounty of words falls short.
So I linger silently, as sunlight
transforms His skin to gold.

What raises a love so yawning
in the nights when we speak?
This love is destructive,
One-sided, fated to implode,
A priestess of a man, not a God.

I see no being has reached perfection
nearly as close as Him.
What is the lesson I should have learned?
My false idol, I will be true.

Daybreak

A gray, unfettering dawn
endeavors to peak the horizon
And flood the waiting, wanting world with
light.
Illuminate the corners of my earth.

Without, without you

Love, your love
the love that cripples me.
I cannot hope
No, no I cannot hope
for a life without, without your heart.

Touch, your touch
the only warmth I feel.
I cannot sense
No, no I cannot sense
My skin without, without you near.

Words, your words,
the narration to my world.
I cannot hear,
No, no, I cannot hear
My ears without, without your song.

Face, your face
The only art I need.
I cannot see
No, no I cannot see
My eyes without, without your sight.

Soul, your soul
the reflection of my whole,
I cannot imagine
No, no I cannot imagine
Happiness without, without your love.

Wandering South

Behold the season that breaths regret
And watch with me, for our sunsets
Within the early hours.
Remember the summer that you cared?
Picked the autumn from my hair
Pretending they were flowers.

The rustling leaves whisper in red.
My weary body aches for bed
Now that the winter's come.
Upon the growth of spring I clutch
Your long forgotten tender touch.
To fallen flame I succumb.

Our love, too, changes like the trees
Leaves foliage begging on it's knees
For one more day of light.
Buried deeply our love would grow.
I would resist the slumberous snow
But I'm too tired to fight.

Passion's bounty, now fruitless yield
A summer love's weakness revealed.
It lay within the season.
Our romance dies with the closing year
How childish for us to linger here
still questioning the reason!

Wave goodbye to love beguiled
In seasons past our summer's wild.
You fill my listless mouth
With all your tired, loveless words.
Like the monarchs, like the birds
Your heart is wandering south.

Karma

Did I think it would be easy?
Just a simple change for the best.
How could I aim to change my world
Without pain, without sacrifice, without regret.

It goes around, it comes around
My past, my future and fate.
Lift me up or break me down,
I'll build me back again.
Karma cannot keep me down
I'll rise up once again.

Did you think I would give in?
Just simply throw it all away.
How couldn't you see the strength in me
With all this pain, and sacrifice and regret.

It goes around, it comes around
My past, my future and fate.
Lift me up or break me down,
I'll build me back again.
Karma cannot keep me down
I'll rise up once again.

Did it all turn out okay?
Simple just an ending sigh.
How I can't wait to see the triumph here
Despite bygone pain, sacrifice regret.

Yellowwood Road

I watch the ground move
Beneath my feet.
Over my head,
A sky that would have brought me to tears.
I miss it.
Diligently, I map the ground.
Staying where it's solid,
Don't veer off this concrete sidewalk.
Quickly, I move, so diligently.
The destinations blurred
Losing sight of my surroundings
Joylessly, I stay the course, so diligently, so quickly.
As the seasons change.
This is not where I want to be.
The leaves fall
The snow falls
And I f
a
l
l...
Spring, pick me up again.
Gladly, I find my way, so carefree, so slowly.
Through brush and marsh and earthly land
To find my way on my own
Alone, alone
The ground, the sky.

Catalyst

Check out this equation
The end product is a lesson
But I'm stuck in a steady state
And I'm dying for a catalyst.
Friends see me crying for a reaction.
They long to help me by.
Can't start bubbling like this
Sorry, take that thing away.
Add no heat in this solution
And I've already been stirred up.
Holding me still
Freeze me, melt me,
In this stationary beaker
All I want is a little catalyst.
In the end I won't be elemental.
Mix it up,
Drop in friends,
Live my life while I change.
I can't speed this simple process
stuck without my lovely catalyst
To heat me up
Stir me up
I'm bubbling up.
Such a simple elixir
To bring me simple joys.

For a Moment

You wrap arms around me while I wrap you up
And for a moment we're ready.
Almost never
Ready
When its time for this.

You pull me to you while pulling me down
And for a moment we're sure.
Never more
Sure
Have my feelings been.

You move in to me while moving me out
And for a moment we're together
At last we're
Together
I've been waiting so long.

You breathe out while I'm breathing you in.
And for a moment we're one
I'm finally
One
With you like this.

You come to me while I'm coming with you.
And for a moment we're alone.
Maybe someday
Alone
For the first time.

And I am in Love Again

I try to blind myself to your sight
Somehow forget your beauty's depth
I lose sight of you inside a crowd
I open my eyes and think I'm free...
But then I see you next to me
And your smile is my only star
It shoots deep into my heart
And I am in love again.

I try to tune out your voice
Somehow forget those words you speak
I lose your voice in crowd of words
I sigh and think I'm free...
But then you whisper in my ear
And I hear the quiver of damselfly wings
They fly deep into my core
And I am in love again.

I try to evade your scent
Somehow forget the smell of you
I lose your trace in a crowd of aromas
I inhale deep and think I'm free...
But then you breathe upon my neck
And I get high from your scent
It lifts my spirit to the clouds
And I am in love again.

I try to stop thinking about how you feel
Somehow forget your hands on me
I wipe my fingertips' memory clean
I relax and think I'm free...
But then you touch my lower back
And lightening bolts strike the earth
They electrify my very being
And I am in love again.

I try to disregard your taste
Somehow forget your lips on mine
I speak words to give them strength
My last chance to let go and be free...
But then you kiss me hard and strong
And words of passion, now, resound
They echo though my soul
And I am in love again.

Wet Paint

You see the sign that says wet paint

I am.

A work in progress

Almost dry

But not

Quite

Yet.

You see the sign that says wet paint

I am.

You long to touch

Leave your mark

But I

Can fix

the smudge.

You see the sign that says wet paint

I am.

Anymore

These are the last lines I'll write for you.
I've said all the words
Given all I can
They aren't enough
They aren't what I mean anymore.

These are the last tears I cry for you.
I've seen it through
Grown to know
You aren't as perfect
You aren't what I need anymore.

These are the last nights I dream of you.
It's just not the same
Gotten away
I'm free
I'm not in love with you anymore...

A Place in Your Heart II

I'll hang up my red ribbon
Still your favorite color is blue
History repeating
I ran my race for the finish
I trained all year
But when she hits the pavement
Effortlessly
I struggle.
My lungs inhale fire.
My heart pounds jungle drums.
My feet hold lead.
She cruises the course
Effortlessly
I struggle.
Second place is not a place to you
Maybe I didn't want it enough
At least I wanted it at all
I watch her run ahead
Effortlessly
I struggle.
Just to keep her insight.
She steals your heart whole
I struggle.
Just to place.

Remember, remember this

Think of your wish.
Remember, remember this.
See nature at your doorstep
With a hunger to ask for more.
Know that sunrises are more precious
when you tend to wake-up late.
Believe that belly-laughs are powerful
Enough to break down walls.
Embrace your large family tightly.
All are brothers, summer sisters now.
Understand that love is never waning
as you give it free as breath.
Hold on to this in those dark nights,
Being so far from this home.
When the questions seal your lips
Think of your wish.
Remember, remember this.

Question

How is it the silence breaks;
Why my hands no longer shake!
Who can know and honestly say
Where she is passing on her way.
What does the absence speak to thee
When these question marks completed me?

Wordsmyth

No word I speak marks word on page
To pronounce what hopes I wish to say.
I would read you poetry if you knew
how much each lyric heavy-hearted weigh.

And people say I read to much
I look for a world beyond my door
And yet no matter what I read
I am still longing for something more.

Perhaps I hold too much tragedy
For tonight I read the saddest lines
When even true love I see can fade
And every fair sometime declines

Yet somehow I love with words so deep
Words of gladness and not of woes
But how my cheek still blushes pink
to think of my love as a damask rose

Words and pride are all I have
when all I breathe is breathing you.
Still I doubt the words upon my lips
Because reading words can't make them true.

Countless volumes cannot help me now
Though countless, say I, is love for him.
Shamed am I to lay down love
And wake Diana with a hymn.

And all my words from borrowed ink
can't spill the secret no one knows.
Three spoken words from tongue and lips
can speak to you my heart's true prose.

I find the choice is mine to make
or to sweep under the rug beneath.
Shall I make our story a happy end
or a happy daggers bitter sheath?

Poem to a Mute Woman

I tell him
I'm just fine
When I speak no words
that you can hear
I write poems
which you don't read
that call out love
for you.
Will I ever
find
my
voice?
And stop being
Mute
Mute in love
So obvious
Until then
I'll wait for that day
That day when I will
Speak.

The Hole

Digging down to make a life,
I dug one hole and named it.
I stayed at the edge of the hole,
Waiting calmly, yet impatient.
Weeks went by and I forgot
The hole I christened awhile back.
Until I embarked out one day
To follow along a lost one's track.
And though I was the only one
Who named the hole I fell into
Too long ago I named it "love"
And so I fell for you.

Glass

I.

Breathe your life on the glass.
Write her name in the mist.
Question your hopes while it fades,
Clutch your heart inside your fist.

Your brown eyes have seen so little
Comparably, your right brain knows so much.
Still you unearth your dirty doubt
of a soul you couldn't touch.

While your tenacity keeps fading,
like the mist upon the glass,
You continue to ponder loves validity
if indeed it too shall pass.

Wonder aloud I beg you.
O please wonder this to me.
Allow me to be the friend you needed
That your lover could never be.


II.

Beat your chest in mourning.
Give up on love forgot.
Maybe one day you will realize
That all you've given is for not.

But no friendly words can matter
and no touch has felt the same
for you to regain your heart
from its totalitarian claim.

Now her name is gone for certain
from that sallow window pane
But when you see her face before
You shall breathe it out again.

All I ask is for the message
Not on windows but in voice.
Tell me how she made you fall,
whether it be force or choice.


III.

Shatter the glass with your fist.
Yes, the one that holds your heart.
Then release it upon the world
So your new life can start.

Amandla

Paint my mantra on your wrist
to transform the current view
of my weakness in your eyes.
You won't question when I'm through.

Sing Amandla, in a foreign tongue
Hear a chant from long ago
Amandla, memeza amandla!
The seeds of strength I sow

Welcome to my free-land.
Grow grace, pick peace, plant power
To stand up to fear and submission,
A law for hope and not cower.

Sing Amandla, a lover's cry
Dance in the flame of calling
Amandla, memeza amandla!
Through time of trouble falling

Until my declaration dies
among the embers of the past
My grip is unwaivering.
Amandla iculo ami at last.

Light Honesty, Heavy Truth

It's my fault you don't feel the weight
of my fear and heavy hope
playing the blame game with your needs.
But can you hold me to my faultless fear
When you still see her in the corner of your eye
At least from time to time.
While your honesty so lightly said makes me shudder,
I am paying for my bravery; pound for pound.
Now I know I cannot tip the scales
with merely loving you more than she.
'Cause when you smell the summer air
You can feel your fingers across her skin.
Each blue sky reminds you of her eyes
And although my wobbling words are heavy
Her ever lofty airs prevail.
Yet my will grows braver still
Since I finally know you do not read me.
I love you so much I cannot have you.
I have doomed us from the start.
So blame me if you must.

Nothing Better

I can think of nothing better
than the grass between my toes,
or the sunshine on my cheeks
with some dirt upon my knees.

Nothing can be better than
a picnic on the hillside,
feeding the geese white bread
and climbing oak trees.

There is nothing better than
listening to the beach break,
watching lightening crack
the sky still full of stars.

And yet nothing is better than
glowing color on our skin,
A lake all to ourselves
near a rock harbor bay.

I can think of nothing better
than these days I do remember.
How can anything be better
than when I am with you?

Amen

The end of this struggle
At last, the last
Of questions of night
and day, today.
And I kneel to make
my peace. The piece
of loneliness I hold
here. Hear?
This is the end of
wonder. Wonder
aloud to the sky's
blue lie. I lie
on grass to see
the past. Past
my feeble prayer to say
Amen to a man.

The Bumble-Bee

I saw a bumble-bee today
after a long, long winter.
He is my hope to end the cold
and the promise of the season.
Summer soon, says he, so soon.
He adroitly rides the cool wind
Spreading the pollen dream:
planting possibility in my heart
To germinate in my soul.
So I shall befriend him first,
Invite him with my flora-scent.
Then warmth with follow after
because yellow-black promise he
assures there will be flowers.

The Hug

O, wrap your arms around me;
Move our bodies closer in.
Can you hear my heart is singing?
'Cause it's the closest we've ever been.

Muddled Musings

It just makes such perfect sense
For me to drop my sly pretense
'Cause its such a faultless fit
Even though I won't admit
It to you or to your ear
Even when I see your tear

Crying for just what I need.
All I know is lust and greed.
But now I know you and now
I scared to move somehow
Love is simple when you fall
Still it makes me feel so small

When I'm down here all alone
Could you roll away the stone?
So you can see that this is it
Oh yes, I found the perfect fit.
And still you cannot see
Logic would dictate, you with me

But I know love is not logical
though it's not merely physiological.
Love, I find, is blind
To the thoughts inside my mind
When I try and block the urge
I can't control the sudden surge

Of liquid through my veins
And the sensation still remains
Locked in a state of needing
And neither push is succeeding.
Now I'm waiting for a green light
so I can continue with this sad fight

and maybe know that you can care
Run your fingers through my hair
Whisper something to me soft
and quite being so aloft
Trace the palm of my hand
I am sure you'll understand

Just when you and I collide
To know what I feel like inside.

Your Day

Your day has come and gone,
The one they promised you so long ago.
Did you let it slip on by
Or did you cherish every sigh?
Did you even realize it?

Why are you still hanging on?
Stop look forward to tomorrow
And quit hating your yesterdays.
It's all over and done.
You missed your day.

Still you're living for tomorrow
When nothings promised but today.
So your day is over with.
You have nothing left to miss.
It's your life. Start living it!

I Want To Be the Thought

I want to be the thought
that lingers softly
in the dark shadows of your mind.

I want to be the thought
that makes you smile
when you are all alone.

I want to be the thought
that holds you together
in times of struggle.

I want to be the thought
that smothers you in the night
when we are long apart.

I want to be the thought
that makes you cry
when happiness overcomes.

I want to be the thought
that you never have to question
because I am always thinking of you.

Quicksand

Don't tell me that you've faltered again.
I don't care to here your excuses anymore.
You didn't just trip by accident;
You threw yourself down at his feet again.
I bite my tongue for you just once
when I didn't say I told you so, right then.

That boy is quicksand.
He thrives on your struggle
And the harder you pull
The deeper you sink
you sink
you sink

Can't say you shock me but you disappoint
And I find that I hate him
When the hate I feel should be yours.
It's not my place to be strong for you.
Pull yourself out this time.
I'm no longer your rope, anymore.

That boy is quicksand.
The deeper you plunge
And the more you submerge
You just give in
give in
give in

Won't be moved by your pleas
When the tragedy you love calls
And the one you feel nothing for
Is valued more than your self-worth.
You know what you must do
Is what you should have done long ago.

That boy is quicksand.
Struggle, girl, struggle.
You've already given him all
Now you're gone
you're gone
you're gone

Poison Rationality

In times like these, Fate chips me,
Whittles away my fortitude,
Bit by stubborn bit of self-resilience.
O, to learn what freedom is
And allow it to fall,
But I am too strong.
I curse my tight grip,
I rue my intensity,
And I hate my might.
Take back your burden!
I carry enough for ten,
Yet you push on more
When I still carry my own.
Doom, you are a cruel tyrant
And Fate, you are a blind lover.
Release me from my duty of strength,
That's leading me to hate.
I haven't known liberty
Since I've known life.
My stomach burns acid,
My heart aches blood and
My brain leaks poison rationality.
Too much, O please, too much.
I do not know what is worse:
The electric-dull pain
Or knowing I will be just fine
If only my eyes would cry.

Ohdee

We carried you home in a big brown box.
I was small and you were smaller.
My black n' white puppy, crying out next to me
in the backseat of our old red van.
We named you Our Dog.
I cupped your small body in my little hands,
Smiling at you in your big box,
I tickled your nose with my long brown hair
And you stopped your crying
Just as, years later, you tickled my toes
with your rough tongue when I cried.
We grew up together;
You grew old alone.

When I was ten, you bite me.
Our brother jumped on you from the monkey bars.
I forgave you the scar on my wrist
before you even begged.
A year later was the fever
that shook our brother late at night.
I held you tight as the sirens sounded,
locked in my room of pink.
We learned unconditional love together;
I learned to say "goodbye" alone.

I remember the first tumor.
I remember when you limped.
I remember the darkness in your eyes
And the first time I called
but you did not come.
I hugged you because I knew.
So I immortalize you with my words.
We learned pain together;
You learned release alone.

To My Confidant

Move my heart to move
In the direction of my intentions.
Can you help my arms to hold
my love without "I love you?"
What's your reaction to my inaction
When you assure what seems unsure?
Still I speak my truthless speech
And I quiet my disquietude.
O, are you mad at my madness?
I expect that, respect that, accept that.
Because in the end I always reach my ends.
So be strong and give me strength.
I'm sane toward my insanity,
Yes, I believe the unbelievable.
Still you dare me to be daring.
I will do what I must do.

Homoiousion

I love not wisely...
Is it the same with you?
I feel pain sharper.
You hold on longer.
Me too, oh yes, me too.
What makes us so different from all of them?
Strength of character...
Yes, I see.
A bit more perceptive,
Do you agree?
Charmed or cursed, you wonder aloud.
We feel harder, with more force
Ignorance is not bliss
when you know what life is.
So true, yes true...
Let's learn, you and I,
We can't save them all.
Can we save each other first?
I'll die for beauty, brother,
You'll fight for truth.
Do you feel the tide rise...
Yes, do you feel it?
I do, I do.
Stick with me,
Stay strong so we don't settle.
We're not alone when we're together.
Hold these truths tightly:
People like us are a rare breed indeed.
Just nod your head if you agree...

Evolution

Look backwards through the microscope

A world of bigger things
Or to the blind of naked eye
My gene to code for wings.

Speak Low

Hear me out.
Just listen.
I have something to say
Now I've finally found my voice.
There are no words
but in layman's terms
I'm in love with you so bad.

(Nameless)

Friend without friendship
With nothing but hot yearnings
Beneifts don't outweigh loss

Villanelle

How do you feel about your plight?
More than a mother to a broken son
by keeping him in your failing sight.

You feel destiny's bitter bite
When the realities weigh a ton
And his disabilities hold on tight.

And he holds one with all his might,
Your charge, your burden, your son.
Try to break free without a fight.

So you stay up late into the night
Until your work is never done
And yet you still rise with first light.

But where do you draw your delight
When the battle is all but won?
Isn't some happiness still your right?

Yet you don't give up the fight
Until your maternal chore is done.
On the horizon is a light
Move forward, but stay in sight.

Sestina for the Girl in a Blue Dress

There is a quiet sunset on the lake,
where serenely is a girl
in a pale blue, flowing dress
fanned out against the dock,
with polka dots like tears.
She watches the sun go behind the trees.

Her home lays beyond those trees,
A white house across lake
beautiful enough to bring tears
to anyone who knows this girl
or sees her on the dock
wearing her pale blue dress.

A pleasant gift, that dress,
that still smells of evergreen trees,
found lonely on the dock
with its owner in the lake.
Unclothed and unfaltering, the girl
swims in the lake of her tears.

Let no one see your tears
her mother said, fixing her dress.
Woman now, not merely a girl
who scrapes her knees climbing trees.
So she cries into the lake
at sunset, sitting on the dock.

Today, near that old dock,
She shamelessly sheds her tears
while swimming in the lake
without disrepute or her dress,
protected from others by the trees
Embracing who she was as a girl.

She doesn't act like a girl;
now basking in the fading sun on the dock
staring up at the overhanging trees.
Washed clean of tears
and of her formal dress,
Here in her happy place on the lake.

Who can know her eyes have tears
unless they see her on the dock
crying and hiding her feelings in the lake?

Luminary

Who wishes on stars anymore?
Children, I say.
But I do, too. When I look up
and the night is clear
I wish to be far-flung from city's
Glow in your eyes:
A childish nightlight.
The stars are distant, sure.
Distant but real, I'm reassured.
Is there ground for those stars?
They float without direction
Save for their own gravity-pull.
I see a star.
I make my wish.
Is that a shooting star or satellite?

I Love Deeper than Pink and Red

I love deeper than pink and red
I love in oranges, greens and blues
I break away from the color code
And think of romance in new hues

I love with more than just my heart
I love with shoulders, knees and hands
I break away from loving one piece
And think of love the body understands

I love more fragrant than a rose
I love in mint, grass and sweat
I break away from the passion scent
And think of a smell I can't forget

I love brighter than your jewels
I love in darkness, twilight and sun
I break away from material things
And think of two that keeps as one

I love in flavors that aren't sweet
I love in bitterness, salt and sour
I break away from the chocolate box
And think of a love I can devour

I love for longer than a day
I love in January, September and May
I break away from the time control
And think of everyday as a love-holiday

Milestone

I was innocent
but I've reached that point

Like a child that waited
Ten years old dreaming
of a sweet sixteen
The birthday came
Still the same person
that I was five minutes
Before.


I was innocent
but I never was pure

A simple question of honesty
now that I can't go back
So I'll go forward
And take with me
what I can carry
Until I reach my end
and a new day
Begins.


I was innocent
but...

Ice thaws
Iron rusts
Mountains crumble
And earths collide

I was innocent
but nothing ever lasts forever.

Grandpa

You sleep in your warm climate
Battle wounds have earned you these;
A little slice of home
on an alligator swamp.
The children visit when they can.
They come from a cold place
you haven't seen in years.
Change to you is moving mountains
but you've lived in many lands;
Waving good-bye to Little Boy,
holding out in bomb shelters.
Freedom from Depression
yet the horrors of the war
your grandchildren see everyday
raised by the black box of flashing lights.
These atomic babies don't grow
in your nuclear families
and the things that you have fought for
are not bedtime stories.
Still there are stories to tell,
but they look at you with haggard eyes
"Respect you elders" falls on dead ears.
Technology's offspring
that share your genes and blood
but they have misplaced your memoirs.
Who said history is written
by the winners of wars?
Or maybe all is lost.

Stupid Girl

Wait for love, she said
It will come, she said
Stupid girl, we said, silly child

He is here, she said
I don't fear, she said
Stupid girl, we said, silly child

It's all right, he said
Stay the night, he said
Stupid girl, we said, silly child

It feels right, she said
I'll hold tight, she said
Stupid girl, we said, silly child

Sure there's pain, she said
But there's gain, she said
Stupid girl, we said, silly child

I love you, she said
Love you too, he said
Stupid girl, we said, silly child

Good-bye, he said
But why, she said
Stupid girl, we said, silly child

Now he's gone, she said
I was wrong, she said
Stupid girl, we said, silly child

Evensong

On a beach of shell and stone, to clean soiled body with salted foam
And at the ocean's saline touch I find an eager yet reluctant home.
Alas, the sea repels the touch of flesh and coasts away from land
The water, as well, resists the shore and pushes beyond sand

O farewell, my sea. Farewell to thee.
I shall miss the words you held to me;
Your hushing whisper in the night,
your clean waters and caps of white.

And yet the Sun, she warms the face, the waves of longing failed to subdue
My eyes go wayward from biddable sight to bare the ocean in her view
And thinking, now, as I did then about the water's green delight
I wish to hug the liquid's edge and dive into my love tonight

O farewell, my land. Farewell to you.
I restore the love I stole from you.
Your leafy limbs and live embrace,
Your worshipped earth of soil and grace.

I swim out with the tide, undulating en masse, as if the sea would seethe,
but cannot give all to the heightening tide as long as I still breathe.
The depths encircle my body's frame, and cuddle my closing lung
In fading light and numbing water, my evensong is sung

O farewell, my life. Farewell to all.
My love will catch me as I fall.
And as my rosy heart dies cold
In water's love, I shall unfold.

If Not for You

If not for you...
I'd still be green
I'd not know love
I'd stay unseen.
If not for you...
I'd be naive
I'd follow blindly
I'd still believe
If not for you...
I'd still hold on.
You may leave but
I'll move on
If not for you...
for me.

Hot Spell

I.

No snow sheaths creation
To lie about Earth's flaws,
just smoky clouds that billow
and tuck away my stars.
The grass begins its turning,
but the time has not come,
Buds peak out of branches
where lights are still hung.
I beg them to hide themselves,
This heat wave will not last,
but nature never listens
She follows her own path.
A frost is coming quickly
It will kill the vulnerable
so I wait another season
for the maturing of my love.

II.

I feel the change in climate
Of a spring that's come too soon.
Every sense echoes excitement
But my calendar stays full.
The changing grass-green,
The sun's impassioned heat
Unquestionable hot spell
leaving my resistance weak.
Muddying warm clarity
As I marvel at the weather,
Seemingly so certain
in this mock-season of change.
But the plants embrace the heat wave
and the animals thrive in packs.
Who am I to question
whether this warmth will last?

On Love and Happiness

When I speak to you
Near dead in the night
Your soul burns out,
but my fire ignites.

The words you say
taste like water it seems.
You can sleep for days
but you don't have dreams

You say you want a love
That will last for all time.
You say you like poetry
but you cannot hear the rhyme.

You place love on a dais
so high you cannot reach.
I tell you what love is,
You tell me not to preach.

"If love isn't enough,
When love is all we got.
You can love somebody,
and still be forgot."

I want you to see it,
Once and for all,
We cannot all be happy
When that final curtain falls.

[Sighs Run Deep Tonight]

Sighs run deep tonight
As an icy gale cuts through the bare trees
That shiver in the cold.
What secrets lay buried beneath that snow?
Would you melt to see
The love and longing for cherished summer?
The fear of reckoning?
Imagine me, tearing you from winter's embrace.
Endless and hopeless;
That grip may feel to me, the one without
The truth or heat
To melt the smothering white that holds you.
But the mask works
To protect me from the hurt that hearts may have
When feelings lay
Bare and uncovered like the trees around us.
Snow banks cling
To the flowerbeds and my bed stays cold.
Winter continues
As I struggle to bury my love with reason
And sickening snow
To beg the silence of my greedy glances.
I cannot thaw the fact,
For I fear the end of more than snow and ice,
But a light from you
Could be my ethereal melting point...