History Repeating

Like an echo from my past
You step through the door
Oh so eager to start again
To turn me into your whore
It's all been done before,
This emotional beating
That's just the game you like
To play; of history repeating

I've broken free from you before
By loosing your hold
And even in doing so
The thought has made me cold
I had learned to live with you
When all happiness is fleeting
And now your back to your
Old game; of history repeating

But now it's time to break the cycle
This cycle that’s breaking my heart
But now I see that the only time I'm happy
Is whenever we're apart
Because I'm sick of all the shit you pull
All the lying, threats and cheating
It looks like I won your
Stupid game; of history repeating

I Know Me

I'm so sick of us being like this
You feel nothing unless we kiss
You just stand there and bite your lip
What the hell is wrong with our relationship?
Screw the rhymes
Tetrameters bore me
I 'm just going tell you the truth
Because I'm tired of being someone else
I'm tired of lying to myself
And sorry for lying to you
The truth is I hate red roses
And to me violets seem purple
Isn't that why they call them violets
And as for sugar; it's not always sweet
Like me
I like to play dress up once-in-awhile
But these heels are killing me
And I never sit right in a skirt
While I'm at it I might as well
Come clean
I use unscented soup in the shower
Who likes the smell of papaya and kiwi anyway?
If it was up to me I’d cut my nails short
And throw out the polish
It's a pain in the ass to paint over chips
I guess you could call me humble
Because I'd rather be outside
Than in the mall
And I'm not the type of girl, who crushes on every guy
But you're special
I've never been the romantic type
But since I've met you
Love songs make sense
And I must admit; as embarrassing as it is
Each night I spray your brand of cologne
On my pillow
Because it reminds me of you
So look at me without the make-up
And my hair part wavy; part straight
Can you love me as I am?
I know it's unfair
To you and to me
For me to continue with this stupid façade
I know that I love you
So I'm leaving the decision to you
Love me or break me
I know myself well enough to take the news
And continue on
No matter what the answer