I Cannot Have You

You smile across the room and I know that I love you
But you don't smile at me; I know I cannot have you
What a merciless torment; when I see you everyday
Wanting to touch you, to love you in every way
A million and one scenarios, dancing through my mind
Of your lips; a tender kiss, our hearts and souls entwined
But each glance is like heartbreak, when you look but never see
The love my heart holds for you, the wreck you've made of me
Against all reason and right judgment, I'm sure I love just you
And it tears me up inside because now I know I cannot have you

So leave me to wallow in all the pain you've made
And I will just continue on and live this masquerade
I really need to wash away, all these fantasies and dreams
Because what lies beneath the surface is never what it seems
In some ways I've always known, you were out of reach
But there's something about my heart I could never teach
And you'll never know, the passion and love that you missed
The devotion that I've felt for you, an infatuation I can't resist
It seemed so easy at first; without you I still loved you
But it's so complicated now; I know I cannot have you

Do you see what your eyes cannot?

Do you see what your eyes cannot?
My heart speaks the words, my lips do not.
I buried these feelings deep down inside,
Except in your eyes, for I cannot hide.

I used to think that love was tears.
You give your all, then it disappears,
But when I'm with you I am shown,
Life isn't worth living, when living alone.

I used to see the world in black.
I'd cry for all the things I lack.
I've left behind the pain and guilt,
Tearing down these walls I've built.

I used to hide my face from light.
I lived in a world of endless night,
But there are no shadows on the sun.
Eventually the sun and moon are one.

I used to be an empty shell,
Wishing things I cannot tell.
I try to hide but you still see,
The feelings deep inside of me.

Do you see what your eyes cannot?
My heart speaks the words, my lips do not.