I Miss You

It's been two years since I've seen your face
I picture you now but you disappear
Time has darkened your image in my mind
Making what was once vivid, unclear
I wish with all my soul to see you now
But when I try I fail and fall again
Then the despair grips me and I give in
I fall willingly and relive the pain
I left you at sixteen and moved forward
I'm growing up and you are frozen
Stuck in time and in my mind, you live
Forever a freshmen; a could've been

I don't want your memory to fade from me
But the clouds of time are rolling in
And when the rain comes it washes you away
So I must leave you buried within
I watch the time with the eyes of a woman
Years will go by and years have gone
I'm struggle to hold on as the seasons change
Others have left you; they must move on
How can I blame them for leaving so fast?
We are still children after all
And the grief sweeps in as we think of you
So much pain it hurts to recall

Sometimes I want to forget how you died
And just simply think of you
But for some reason, it pains me more
If I try but I can't see you
There are some nights when I've dreamt of you
You hold me while I sit and cry
A small favor given by your midnight visits
But in the morning, another lie
These years have brought on clarity anew
Only love will bring us through
And when the next two years pass me by
Please know, Jared, I miss you