Cutting the Thread

It's been many years now, locked in this prison of a home
A hell with bay windows and patio doors
I've watch as the wishes of those I love whither at your feet.
I've seen my desires sacrificed for your own petty needs
You destroyed my life, my dreams and hopes of someday
Breaking free and moving into the light beyond your shadow
You made the mistake of loosening my leash
And once I've tasted the light there's no living without
I may be just a broken down spirit, cold and dark inside like you
But I can still cut you and I've got the salt to make it sting
You hang your lies over my head by the tiniest thread
What will you do when your lies come crashing down?
All around you; a life's work of pain and deceit, shattered glass at your feet
What would you do if they found out who you were inside?
Just a selfish brat, caring about nothing unless it's yourself
When you look in the mirror do you see what I do?
A monster behind a mask, choking on smoke
I block my ears to your words, they burn anyway
I'll leave you with your misery that you've created
So carefully around yourself, trapping you inside
I'm going from the darkness to bathe in the warmth of the sun.

I Don't Believe in Love

I don't believe in love,
It's fairy tale that never comes true.
I don't believe in love,
Because love never follows through.

Please tell me why
I should believe a lie
I don't believe in love.
Love is just an illusion
Confusion and delusion
I don't believe in love

I don't believe in love,
It's a story to help you sleep at night.
I don't believe in love
It's both a legend and a painful plight

Please tell me why
I should believe a lie
I don't believe in love.
Love is just an illusion
Confusion and delusion
I don't believe in love

I don't believe in love
In the end it always makes you cry
I don't believe in love
When he leaves me with Good-bye

Sadistic Devotion

Sweet dreams, Good night
Whisper softly, "Put out the light"
Warm lips, Love erased
Fade away, Warmth's replaced
Cold ice, Visions gone
And its hours until the dawn
Red roses, Candle stick
Melt away, Burnt out the wick
Salty tears, Broken glass
The love we had is lost, Collapse
Pained screams, Star watch
Fall away, Drunk half the scotch
Bruised cheek, Kisses sweet
Lost words when fist and face meet
Sadistic devotion, Amorous hate
Waste away, but it's too late.

No Longer, No More

Gentle kisses reach my lips no longer
Tender touches feel my skin no more
My heart is aching for you to be with me
I cannot hide this feeling anymore
It hurts me thinking of my life without you
My world is falling, crashing to the ground
Thunder rolls as I wait for you in vain
It's clear to me now you're no longer mine
Sweet whispers find my ear no longer
Silent love enters my heart no more
How... can this be?
I loved you... and you loved me
I lie in bed each night calling out your name
I wake every morning reaching for you
I live each day wishing you were here
I want... gentle kisses, tender touches,
sweet whispers and silent "I love you's"

Gypsies By Twilight

In daylight we are children holding our mothers' hands
In nighttime we are Bohiemiens traveling in our gypsy band
The day can get so boring, of school we often tire
While waiting for the night to come so we can dance beside the fire
With rings on our fingers and bells on our toes
We sing to the moon where ever she goes
The violin plays quickly by the fire's light
The wise owl takes in the sight
Of our scarves waving through the air
As we stick flowers in our hair
By day we sit patiently waiting for the night
And when the sun begins to fade we're gypsies by twilight.

The Storm Breaker

My heart, it was so lonely
I thought it would beat for him only
Thought the storm would never fade away
Looking to the times of yesterday
All hope was nearly lost
No getting through no matter the cost
Then like a rainbow through the clouds
Spoke to me the most heavenly of sounds
My soul you lifted
Made me feel gifted
Restored my hope and love
You were sent from above
Baby, you chased my clouds away
And opened the sky for a bright new day
With you by my side I can touch the sky
Kissing all my worries and fears goodbye

The Daydreamer

While in school my mind does roam
To a place where Dragons have a home
Where Princes and Princess doth dwell
And Faeries speak secrets I dare not tell
Where water flows so deep and dark
And trees reach skyward with twisting bark
Where mountains stand so steep and tall
And Mermaids swim by a waterfall
Who knows where my mind may reach
When my teacher starts to teach

Reflections of Imperfection

I look into this distorted glass
A cruel image comes back to me
And it breaks me more than I do it
When I see the face I hate to see

But now I'm caught inside that glass
Trapped with the spirits of dignity
And the ghosts of my self-esteem
Can I live in anonymity?

Or must I face the world this way?
Must I stay and face rejection
Or can I just stare into the broken glass
At my reflections of imperfection.

Beauty is just Skin Deep

You broke my heart, you made me cry,
Without even giving me a try.
You judged by how I looked,
Just like I was some old book,
And I was wrong I should have guessed,
Why wouldn't you be like all the rest?
But now you ask me if I would
Go out with you, I don't think I should.

Because yesterday isn't that far away,
You didn't like me then, then why today.
So forget about now, let's think about then,
And if I've changed please tell me when.

My hair is long, my teeth are straight,
And now you're asking me for a date.
Who I am still hasn't changed.
Just my looks, isn't that strange,
That your mind changed when I'd
Changed my outside, not inside.
I'm looking for someone who loves
The me that was given from above.

Because yesterday isn't that far away,
You didn't like me then, then why today.
So forget about now, let's think about then,
And if I've changed please tell me when.

I thought you were honest
Thought you were caring
Thought you were everything I wanted.
But, oh no, I was wrong.
I should have known it all along.

Beauty is just skin deep,
It's the heart you got to keep.
But if you look into my eyes,
You'll see their owner's gotten wise,
And you'll see what you did wrong.
There's no more trying to belong.

I'll Think of You

Every time I see the midnight sky,
And the crescent moon shinning high above me,
With the stars shimmering their precious light,
Whenever the day becomes the night, I'll think of you.

Every time I close my eyes,
And slowly, gently drift off to sleep,
With lights flashing inside my head,
Whenever I'm alone in my bed, I'll dream of you.

Every time I see lovers pass my way,
And I wish I had a lover to call my own,
With the way they look into each others eyes,
Whenever someone cries, I'll remember you.

Every time I hear a love song,
And the melody makes me sing,
With the notes dancing along,
Whenever I sing a song, I'll sing for you.

I'll think of you.