well, he’s not here though

and i am

palm on my lower back

he pulls me to him to whisper toxins

no one will ever know

i know

i’ll always remember

no

but that second

i feel my sex electric

his hard persuasion against me

bait for sinners

pounding in my breast

more whispers

to get his lips closer to mine

his tongue inside

my hunger is wet

lust he speaks with foreign tongue

i ache for warmth

surrounding me and filling me

i will tell no one

i would tell

i can keep no secrets

no

but in that instant

gratification pulses in my mind

the seed of infidelity

i fondle with the thought

and save it for myself tonight

no

i am a tease for temptation

equal and opposite...

Look at me with your eyes
like reefs of coral; blue deep
and smile.
When I say I love you,
you can't help
but move
like electricity pulsing through you.
Kiss the small of my back.
Your face feels rough
like pine needles; I want to touch.
Feel me whisper in your ear.
I send a shiver through you
like cold heat; you gasp.
I take you in with a breath
and it feels
like we are whole.
Every sigh I live for.
I see you adore me
like trees love the breeze.
You move me.

Scorched

First I loved his passion.
His words crackled the fire inside
And he glowed like embers stoked.
I stared deeply in the flame
the molten core, blue dancing tips.
His fire became my sun
and blinded me straight through.
I couldn’t see the fires burn
consume, ravage, and destroy us.
I was ablaze with him.
But once the fire burned out,
and all was reduced to ashes,
I was left to smolder.

But Still

Questioning, unfaltering
my sense of confusion in this state.
Your muted tongue tells
stories of love, but still...

Mysterious, delirious
your actions in this room.
My bare skin sings
your fingertips, but still...

Unlikely, unearthly
this lightning striking twice.
That night echoes
a history in my life, but still...

Gloriously, notoriously
our fusion of catalyzed bodies.
The world sighs
I shudder for breath, but still...

Desire, uninspired
that may be all we have.
I keep you in
so you can't leave, but still...

...But still I love you,
But still I question you,
But still I let you in.

...But still I need you.
But still I don't believe you.
But still I whisper,
'You are my gift.'

For a Moment

You wrap arms around me while I wrap you up
And for a moment we're ready.
Almost never
Ready
When its time for this.

You pull me to you while pulling me down
And for a moment we're sure.
Never more
Sure
Have my feelings been.

You move in to me while moving me out
And for a moment we're together
At last we're
Together
I've been waiting so long.

You breathe out while I'm breathing you in.
And for a moment we're one
I'm finally
One
With you like this.

You come to me while I'm coming with you.
And for a moment we're alone.
Maybe someday
Alone
For the first time.

(Nameless)

Friend without friendship
With nothing but hot yearnings
Beneifts don't outweigh loss