Confidant (Revisited)

Move my heart to you,
The direction of my intentions.
Can you help my arms to hold
my love without "I love you?"
What's your reaction to my inaction
When you assure what seems unsure?
Still I speak my truthless speech
And I quiet my disquietude.
Could you save me from my sanity?
Will you dare me to be daring?
I expect that, respect that, accept that.
Revive me, alive.

Wordsmyth

No word I speak marks word on page
To pronounce what hopes I wish to say.
I would read you poetry if you knew
how much each lyric heavy-hearted weigh.

And people say I read to much
I look for a world beyond my door
And yet no matter what I read
I am still longing for something more.

Perhaps I hold too much tragedy
For tonight I read the saddest lines
When even true love I see can fade
And every fair sometime declines

Yet somehow I love with words so deep
Words of gladness and not of woes
But how my cheek still blushes pink
to think of my love as a damask rose

Words and pride are all I have
when all I breathe is breathing you.
Still I doubt the words upon my lips
Because reading words can't make them true.

Countless volumes cannot help me now
Though countless, say I, is love for him.
Shamed am I to lay down love
And wake Diana with a hymn.

And all my words from borrowed ink
can't spill the secret no one knows.
Three spoken words from tongue and lips
can speak to you my heart's true prose.

I find the choice is mine to make
or to sweep under the rug beneath.
Shall I make our story a happy end
or a happy daggers bitter sheath?

Poem to a Mute Woman

I tell him
I'm just fine
When I speak no words
that you can hear
I write poems
which you don't read
that call out love
for you.
Will I ever
find
my
voice?
And stop being
Mute
Mute in love
So obvious
Until then
I'll wait for that day
That day when I will
Speak.

Muddled Musings

It just makes such perfect sense
For me to drop my sly pretense
'Cause its such a faultless fit
Even though I won't admit
It to you or to your ear
Even when I see your tear

Crying for just what I need.
All I know is lust and greed.
But now I know you and now
I scared to move somehow
Love is simple when you fall
Still it makes me feel so small

When I'm down here all alone
Could you roll away the stone?
So you can see that this is it
Oh yes, I found the perfect fit.
And still you cannot see
Logic would dictate, you with me

But I know love is not logical
though it's not merely physiological.
Love, I find, is blind
To the thoughts inside my mind
When I try and block the urge
I can't control the sudden surge

Of liquid through my veins
And the sensation still remains
Locked in a state of needing
And neither push is succeeding.
Now I'm waiting for a green light
so I can continue with this sad fight

and maybe know that you can care
Run your fingers through my hair
Whisper something to me soft
and quite being so aloft
Trace the palm of my hand
I am sure you'll understand

Just when you and I collide
To know what I feel like inside.

Speak Low

Hear me out.
Just listen.
I have something to say
Now I've finally found my voice.
There are no words
but in layman's terms
I'm in love with you so bad.