Scorched

First I loved his passion.
His words crackled the fire inside
And he glowed like embers stoked.
I stared deeply in the flame
the molten core, blue dancing tips.
His fire became my sun
and blinded me straight through.
I couldn’t see the fires burn
consume, ravage, and destroy us.
I was ablaze with him.
But once the fire burned out,
and all was reduced to ashes,
I was left to smolder.

Give Me Your Hand

Give me your hand

just to steady my own.
Lead me wearily down
this tangled road to love.
Silence in a multitude of sound
And I slip behind.

Do you know where we are?

Echoes, reflections,
Trees cast shadows
on the windshield.
You trap me with your kisses
And you cage me with your arms.

How did I end up here alone?

It's your resistance halting.
I will hold you to your word
in this place we have created
to the brighter end of passion.
If I can't have your heart then

Give me your hand.

Loving Lost

Love unexpected

Loving clear

Love unbidden

Loving here

Love unsafe

Loving crossed

Love unequaled

Loving lost.

But Still

Questioning, unfaltering
my sense of confusion in this state.
Your muted tongue tells
stories of love, but still...

Mysterious, delirious
your actions in this room.
My bare skin sings
your fingertips, but still...

Unlikely, unearthly
this lightning striking twice.
That night echoes
a history in my life, but still...

Gloriously, notoriously
our fusion of catalyzed bodies.
The world sighs
I shudder for breath, but still...

Desire, uninspired
that may be all we have.
I keep you in
so you can't leave, but still...

...But still I love you,
But still I question you,
But still I let you in.

...But still I need you.
But still I don't believe you.
But still I whisper,
'You are my gift.'

Divinity

I spend my sunrise breathing His praise
Afraid of the failing night
yet I bask in the light of His presence
for prayers go unanswered when He's gone.

Another instant I am left breathless,
Another second of fallacious hope,
Another moment of worship at His temple.
I try to speak of His beauty internal
and my bounty of words falls short.
So I linger silently, as sunlight
transforms His skin to gold.

What raises a love so yawning
in the nights when we speak?
This love is destructive,
One-sided, fated to implode,
A priestess of a man, not a God.

I see no being has reached perfection
nearly as close as Him.
What is the lesson I should have learned?
My false idol, I will be true.

For a Moment

You wrap arms around me while I wrap you up
And for a moment we're ready.
Almost never
Ready
When its time for this.

You pull me to you while pulling me down
And for a moment we're sure.
Never more
Sure
Have my feelings been.

You move in to me while moving me out
And for a moment we're together
At last we're
Together
I've been waiting so long.

You breathe out while I'm breathing you in.
And for a moment we're one
I'm finally
One
With you like this.

You come to me while I'm coming with you.
And for a moment we're alone.
Maybe someday
Alone
For the first time.

And I am in Love Again

I try to blind myself to your sight
Somehow forget your beauty's depth
I lose sight of you inside a crowd
I open my eyes and think I'm free...
But then I see you next to me
And your smile is my only star
It shoots deep into my heart
And I am in love again.

I try to tune out your voice
Somehow forget those words you speak
I lose your voice in crowd of words
I sigh and think I'm free...
But then you whisper in my ear
And I hear the quiver of damselfly wings
They fly deep into my core
And I am in love again.

I try to evade your scent
Somehow forget the smell of you
I lose your trace in a crowd of aromas
I inhale deep and think I'm free...
But then you breathe upon my neck
And I get high from your scent
It lifts my spirit to the clouds
And I am in love again.

I try to stop thinking about how you feel
Somehow forget your hands on me
I wipe my fingertips' memory clean
I relax and think I'm free...
But then you touch my lower back
And lightening bolts strike the earth
They electrify my very being
And I am in love again.

I try to disregard your taste
Somehow forget your lips on mine
I speak words to give them strength
My last chance to let go and be free...
But then you kiss me hard and strong
And words of passion, now, resound
They echo though my soul
And I am in love again.

Anymore

These are the last lines I'll write for you.
I've said all the words
Given all I can
They aren't enough
They aren't what I mean anymore.

These are the last tears I cry for you.
I've seen it through
Grown to know
You aren't as perfect
You aren't what I need anymore.

These are the last nights I dream of you.
It's just not the same
Gotten away
I'm free
I'm not in love with you anymore...

A Place in Your Heart II

I'll hang up my red ribbon
Still your favorite color is blue
History repeating
I ran my race for the finish
I trained all year
But when she hits the pavement
Effortlessly
I struggle.
My lungs inhale fire.
My heart pounds jungle drums.
My feet hold lead.
She cruises the course
Effortlessly
I struggle.
Second place is not a place to you
Maybe I didn't want it enough
At least I wanted it at all
I watch her run ahead
Effortlessly
I struggle.
Just to keep her insight.
She steals your heart whole
I struggle.
Just to place.

Question

How is it the silence breaks;
Why my hands no longer shake!
Who can know and honestly say
Where she is passing on her way.
What does the absence speak to thee
When these question marks completed me?

Poem to a Mute Woman

I tell him
I'm just fine
When I speak no words
that you can hear
I write poems
which you don't read
that call out love
for you.
Will I ever
find
my
voice?
And stop being
Mute
Mute in love
So obvious
Until then
I'll wait for that day
That day when I will
Speak.

Glass

I.

Breathe your life on the glass.
Write her name in the mist.
Question your hopes while it fades,
Clutch your heart inside your fist.

Your brown eyes have seen so little
Comparably, your right brain knows so much.
Still you unearth your dirty doubt
of a soul you couldn't touch.

While your tenacity keeps fading,
like the mist upon the glass,
You continue to ponder loves validity
if indeed it too shall pass.

Wonder aloud I beg you.
O please wonder this to me.
Allow me to be the friend you needed
That your lover could never be.


II.

Beat your chest in mourning.
Give up on love forgot.
Maybe one day you will realize
That all you've given is for not.

But no friendly words can matter
and no touch has felt the same
for you to regain your heart
from its totalitarian claim.

Now her name is gone for certain
from that sallow window pane
But when you see her face before
You shall breathe it out again.

All I ask is for the message
Not on windows but in voice.
Tell me how she made you fall,
whether it be force or choice.


III.

Shatter the glass with your fist.
Yes, the one that holds your heart.
Then release it upon the world
So your new life can start.

Nothing Better

I can think of nothing better
than the grass between my toes,
or the sunshine on my cheeks
with some dirt upon my knees.

Nothing can be better than
a picnic on the hillside,
feeding the geese white bread
and climbing oak trees.

There is nothing better than
listening to the beach break,
watching lightening crack
the sky still full of stars.

And yet nothing is better than
glowing color on our skin,
A lake all to ourselves
near a rock harbor bay.

I can think of nothing better
than these days I do remember.
How can anything be better
than when I am with you?

The Hug

O, wrap your arms around me;
Move our bodies closer in.
Can you hear my heart is singing?
'Cause it's the closest we've ever been.

Homoiousion

I love not wisely...
Is it the same with you?
I feel pain sharper.
You hold on longer.
Me too, oh yes, me too.
What makes us so different from all of them?
Strength of character...
Yes, I see.
A bit more perceptive,
Do you agree?
Charmed or cursed, you wonder aloud.
We feel harder, with more force
Ignorance is not bliss
when you know what life is.
So true, yes true...
Let's learn, you and I,
We can't save them all.
Can we save each other first?
I'll die for beauty, brother,
You'll fight for truth.
Do you feel the tide rise...
Yes, do you feel it?
I do, I do.
Stick with me,
Stay strong so we don't settle.
We're not alone when we're together.
Hold these truths tightly:
People like us are a rare breed indeed.
Just nod your head if you agree...